Back Here for a Moment

I have been grounded for a week. I lost everything my mom could think to take away. All for being stubborn and refusing to go to a birthday party. She was really upset that I wouldn't go. I guess it taught me that I can do very well without a computer: games, reading and writing blogs, and even Word. I am better off without it all, I think! I might stop blogging soon, and I thought of it before, but this week has really proven that it is best. I want to write in a real notebook and put my stories on real paper.

The only thing I'll really miss is music- and e-mail. Would you believe it~

I missed Steubenville.

You what?

Yes. I missed it. It was on my mind- When is it? What will it be like? What am I going to do, since all of the girls going were mean to me all school year and the boys all stick together? What will I bring for the six-hour bus ride? How many more days? When is it? When is it?

And then there is a call. I don't hear it, so Dad wakes me up and replays the message. Five o'clock in the morning. I am barely awake. "Hi, we're all on the bus and it's leaving in eight minutes. Everyone is here- we're just missing Emily-" Shock flies through my blood. I feel cold and rushed. I almost began to cry. The bus left without me.

So tragic. I know. lol. Yes~ I missed it. Because I didn't get the e-mail! Because I wouldn't go to that birthday party! Because I was stubborn! (I had a nice afternoon not going, by the way- but once again, the end does not justify the means)

I am actually glad I didn't go. But that is for a selfish reason. I am one of those people who doesn't like lots of people. And on the bus I would be forced to listen to the others and their conversations that make me ill.

I think it might have been better going. I know that everyone who does comes back energized and inspired~ excited about God. I'll have to ask someone what it was like. I'll bet they had a wonderful time. Prayed Hail Marys for them. But it's an upwards note. I'm falling in love again with this vocation that everyone insists I have. I'm reading a wonderful book. I've found a really good CCD teacher who knows a lot about stuff! I'm finding a great circle of friends who share the love of certain things I could never live without, like singing! I'm trying to force The Incorruptibles on my father, who is skeptical. I'm finding that I don't have to be a second mother, which takes a lot of unnecessary stress away. I found two of my favorite CDs. I am working on a King Arthur-style tale with a decidedly Catholic twist. And, of course, my writing could never sound much like the author of that grand adventure. And I'm coming around to praying the daily Rosary again sometime in the near future, I think.

I won't blog for a while. Perhaps I will be back when the mood strikes. Perhaps not. Don't expect anything. Thanks be to God for all of my lovely readers and all of the writers I read. Bless you all~ especially my Teen Catholic brothers and sisters, if they are allowed to be blessed more than anyone else. lol.

~Rosary-girl

Technical Stuff

This is kind of random, but I find that whenever I upload pictures to my blog (I tend to put a lot on my private one) the internet connetion has a 75% or so chance of not working for some time afterwards, with the chance against it not working increasing according to the number of pictures I try to upload. Then it comes on again after a while- sometimes a long time and sometimes a short one. Has anyone else had this problem? I've never had it until the past few weeks. I wonder if it is connected to some virus or the internet connection is just weak. Any ideas?

God bless! Rosarygirl

What's the Point?

Once I asked someone I knew that used to go to church if her family did anymore. I remember once going to Sunday school there. Her reply was, with a bitter sort of laugh, "What's the point?" I still wish I had had a good answer for her at the moment. Are you joking? What's the point? Everything is the point.

I hardly know where to begin. Well, let's see... going to church is the foundation for a relationship with God. (I mean, it's with the Mass that the spiritual life is introduced and the Eucharist should be the center of the Christian life.) I guess it's basically that "Church is where God is." Church isn't about "Going to church will make me a better person" or "Going to church won't make me a better person, so there is no reason to go." Church is about "I love God and want to be with Him and receive the graces He gives me so I can live a holy life." and "God said to keep holy the sabbath day, so I am going to do that, because I love Him." Church is about God. And if there is no church, there's no closeness to God. And without God there is no Good. Only evil. And no one wants that. Oh, right- except satan. For those reasons and a hundred more, church-is-important!

"What if I don't like organized religion? What if I want to make up my own god to pray to? I can be close to God without the Eucharist or going to Mass!"

Then you are a heretic and probably in the state of mortal sin. Enough said. lol.

God bless! Rosarygirl

I Just Remembered...

... That my First Holy Communion was yesterday, two years ago. Or three? No. Two.

Well. That's all :)

God bless! Rosarygirl

Long Summer Days

Thanks be for wonderful long summer days, Masses, dancing, relay races, feast days, and good friends. I had such a fun day! We four girls all came come with bad sunburns and black feet and I was so tired I fell asleep almost immediately. Our patron saint, our beloved Mother in Heaven and B.V.M., whose feast day it is today, was surely praying for us and close to us all.

We had a wonderful time dancing, but we were the only ones who wanted to. We couldn't convince any of the boys to join us... they said things like, "You want me to square dance?! No way!" or "Ahhh.... no." or "You are not getting me to do that." How boring. Not even the little girls wanted to come in. They were too busy eating candy.

My dad says to tell "All of your friends at the Catholic girl site" that "Your heathen father goes to Mass more than you do." Ha ha. That's because I am so tired after running my brothers around writing essays in the morning that I sleep all the way until eight the next. So there.

Last, have you seen Teen Catholic's new blog? Guess he's starting over here. I hope this also means we'll hear more from him! And no more every two weeks telling us all that he is going to go Evangelical. He says: "Since the start of my last blog I have grown and matured much in my faith. I have learned constantly and have formed solid opinions, which is something that my last blog had lacked." Amen! Let's hear applause for that...

God bless! Rosarygirl

You Know Better Than I

What is it I like so much about this song? I don't exactly know, but I like it a lot :)

God bless! Rosarygirl

Persistent One

Yesterday I wanted to listen to the radio for a little while (I don't have one that really works, so I get mine from the internet) but no. The rosary was hanging on the wall and He was telling me to take it down. "No! I don't have time!" I protested. "It's not every day I get to go to sleep early!" and besides, by the time I finished, the Rosary would be on the radio anyway and I would have to miss what I wanted to listen to and listen to that for the second time instead!

I wasn't in a mood not to pray... and yet I didn't want to. "Why do You do this to me?" I asked, annoyed. "And it's even worse to know that You are always right!"

And what do you know. He was. I even had a whole twenty minutes to listen to my show before the Rosary came on again. Prayer isn't something one ever regrets.

God bless! Rosarygirl